Question question question
always lingering around my mind...

Who am I ??
Who are you ??
Why am i so fortunate to have you ??
Why did you chose me ??
Why did i made you cried ??
How am I suppose to make you happy ??
Am i considered lying to you if i am trying to cheer u up ??
What if i did this and you started crying ??
What if i bought something you didn't like ??
What if you was angry with me ??
What if you was feeling insecure with me ??
What if i did not give you enough love ??
What if i controlled you too much ??
What if i break some promises to you due to some problems ??
What if i couldn't see you because i was busy ??
What if at the middle of the night you suddenly miss me ??
What if you were crying now ??
What if your parents object our relationship ??
What if you cried because i couldn't stay with you for the day even i promise ??

This questions always surrounds me which makes me thinking about you all the time..
Sometimes i know i have been breaking promises and making you cry..
But i really do not want to say NO to you when you are hoping for something...
I just don't want to see that disappointed face of yours, that sad face, that face the sulks...
That why most of the time i will just go as u wish to because i just want to make you happy...
But at times, i really couldn't make up my mind, eventhough i promised you, i still couldn't make it sometimes...

I know that sometimes i make up some lies to trick you and so,
but this are all only because i wish you to have the best..
I knew you don't like going home, because every time you go home then you would be leaving me already...
But the truth is still inevitable, we are a couple,
you are my lou po zai and i am your lou gong zai,
but still we don't have a house,
we don't have an income,
and we still stays with our families...
Families ties are important too at times,
not only me that is the most important...
I wish you to have time to be with your family too...

TBC